I am scared
my sister in law has cancer. bowel & liver cancer. And a few months ago we were told that it 'could' be a familial cancer - which is supposed to mean it can run in families. However, this is the first time that it has appeared in the family, far as we know. So my darling guy has had a few tests and last Thursday he was told that they had found 'something' - what the hell does that mean? He only told me tonight as he didn't want me to worry all weekend. Don't worry says the doctor - in most cases it is nothing but to be on the safe side - he has to see a specialist BUT not until December. I will be ringing them first thing in the morning to get him in sooner ! ! I am scared witless - my mind keeps running with the 'what if' crap. Then I hyperventilate, then I need to calm myself down, then I cry. Thank goodness he is out at a meeting. I am scared that it will be 'something' - there it is said. Yes I am scared it will be cancer. I can't concentrate on a thing - I have been trying to visit blogs and comment but I have no interest. I have been praying and putting requests in my angel journal but a little part of me keeps thinking nothing I do will change what will be & I hate being out of control. Deep down, I know I am panicking for nothing and it will most likely be ok.
I need hugs
posted by Miss Robyn | 8:52 pm
25 Comments:
You know the power of positive thought, so I'm sending good mojo your way, to help you deal with whatever happens. I'm sure the doctor was just being cautious - you know what they're like, but I'll be thinking of you and keeping my fingers crossed. Good luck to you and your hubby.
Oh, I forgot the hugs... sending those too :) *hugs*
Good morning Miss*R,
A warm friendly, loving, re-assuring hug from Long Island. I'm a big gal, so you can melt into me and sigh and cry.
Not knowing is a terrible place to be. Panic is a normal -- and not so helpful reaction.
I will stay with you in the here and in the now. I will stay with you in the present tense. I will take a deep breath with you, and when we exhale together deeply we will feel our power return.
I will inhale again with you deeply, and when we exhale slowly and mindfully, we will know that we are here.
I will inhale with you again deeply and slowly, and when we exhale together slowly, fully, deeply, we will know that we are ready and able to play anything that the universe lays at our doorstep.
whoops, I meant: "We are ready to HANDLE anything the universe sends us."
But "play" is an interesting lapsus.
Dear Robyn - your panic and fear is understandable, especially with your experience. But that experience also tells you that people do recover from cancer.
I sincerely hope that this is a false alarm, and I will pray for your sister-in-law, your husband and yourself, in fact, all of the family.
Rely on anything and anyone whom you feel confident to support you, including your hundreds of blog friends.
May God grant you strength and peace. With love and hugs - Alice.
Of course you are worried and scared!Good for you for calling to get things moved up. You have all your blog friends sending prayers and good thoughts out and each of wish we were able to be there to give you hugs but just close your eyes and you can feel every one of them. Hubby is very blessed to have you as we all know you will get things done. Hugs my friend!
(your soaps are drying.. I am on the ball this week LOL)
I too am praying for you both. I am a cancer survivor and I know the panic mode that occurs while you wait to find out. hugs and blessings are headed your way from Georgia in the USA. Hold ON. And keep us all updated.
Miss R,
I am sending you a band of angels for comfort, for peace and for safety, I am sending a band of angels to your "darling guy" for good health, for comfort and for a safe journey.
I know you are scared. I have been through it with my husband. PLease do take care of yourself
ANg
Dearest Miss*R*...Sending prayers.
The anxiety of waiting and the stress is terrible. However if the Doc doesn't need to check him until Dec 1 then it's probably not the C word....If it really looked suspicious then it would seem that the doc would take him in right away... Lots of hugs
Dear Robyn, everyone of us is hugging you and sending you our prayers as you read these comments.Don't project your fears, try to stay in the moment,I know how scary this is. I went through it with my husband over 20 years ago.Your husband's Dr. is probably being pro-active.Try to live and enjoy each day, don't squander them with what ifs..Take care of each other, all will be well.
Dear Robyn,
My heart goes out to you...I wish I could do something to bring you some comfort. Sending your way lots of prayers and hugs. Your Angels are watching over you dear girl.
Blessings and love.
Dearest Robyn, first of all I am sending you warm hugs, a shoulder to lean on and ear to listen. Secondly, I really feel this is all precaution and will result in nothing.My mother had to have an MRI because they saw "something" on her CT scan (of her head). Turned out all was well and she could have moved slightly causing a shadow the first time. For your own peace of mind do call and see if you can get more info and also get him in before then....this way all of you can take a deep breath knowing it's all ok. Talk to St Therese....breathe in, breathe out. We are all here for you.....and you know our collective vibes are intense!!!
XOXOXO
Huge HUGS to you Dear Robyn!!!! I am saying my prayers for you...I agree with Lisa...lots of times (in fact...most of the time) these turn out to be nothing...but do try to get him in sooner..stay strong girl!!! Your friends are thinking of you....
Hugs from Colorado - This is a difficult thing you are facing and the not knowing is the hardest part.
I will send positive thoughts and energy your way. Hang in there!!!!
Tammy
Dear Miss Robin:
Hugs, hugs, hugs, million of hugs for you. And my words are implied in my hugs for you. My heart and mind are with you, Today.
{{{{{{{{{Robyn}}}}}}}}} many, many hugs. I'm putting out positive thoughts and praying.
{hugs} I am so glad that we can be here for you in whatever small way. Think good thoughts, we will do the same. {hugs}
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Dear Robyn,
I recently went thru the dreadful waiting for results, when my thirteen year old daughter had a biopsy done a month ago. The ordeal of watching my little trooper having to be cut and the expression on her face with tears welling in her eyes just tore my heart out. Two weeks of waiting was a destroyer of time and I couldn't function one bit. When I got the call from the doctor's office telling me it was benign, I had to ask my girlfriend who I was with if that was the good word? I was so totally distraught that I couldn’t even think clearly and it was evident when I couldn’t recall the meaning of the word when I knew all along its meaning quite well……Fear devoured my mind.
Try not to let the fear overcome you and think of the positive as much as you can. Say a little prayer each day …We all will. Have trust in God and always feel that there are angels among us.
Annabelle
Dear Miss*R So sorry you are having to go through this. Sending you Hugs many of them. So many you will be tired of them. Prayers and good wishes also.
I just checked in to your blog.
Here's a bunch of hugs.
Try not to worry, at least not just yet. You'll feel silly to have spent all that energy worrying when the test results come in and it is NOT cancer.
XOXOXOXOXOXOXO
Robyn, I only now read your post. I'm sure it's ok, you know it's ok, it has to be ok. You pulled through your ordeal, and if he has to pull through, you know he will. With you by his side, how could things go bad? You hang in there girl and I will send my prayers to you and your love. xoxo
((((Robyn)))) I hadn't had time to visit all the blogs yesterday and tonight I find this post...my heart goes out to you because I know exactly how terrified you are! It's the not knowing that eats up at us...they say don't worry until there is something to worry about but that's easier said than done! Just know we are all here for you and will be praying along with you! Hugs xox
Oh heavens Ms Robyn, what a ghastly wait. At the very least, he has been checked, and IF there is anything which needs fixing - it will have been found in time to be sorted. Holding you in my thoughts...
G
Oh dear! I'm sending you all my positive thoughts Robyn!
Sings:
Everythings gonna be alright! Everythings gonna be alright!
Hugs xox
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